Find the Creator

Speaking to reporters after the 13th annual Mother’s Day Programme at the Women’s Prison, St Louis said: “I am better and I will be better and I owe it to the Creator. Some say God but I say the Creator.” Giving an example of her progress since being imprisoned, several years ago, a visibly proud St Louis said she had recently written the CXC English-Language paper “and I know to myself that I got a distinction.” She said when she returned to the prison after writing the paper, it dawned on her that people must try not to be influenced negatively by others.

“I learnt that don’t ever let somebody change your mind to what you know. If it is that you know that you are something, you must know you can something better.” St Louis, who turns 27 on September 29, is charged with the murder of security guard Robert Bobb in April 2013.

Quite stylish in her pair of silver heels and black pencil pants, St Louis was among a group of inmates who got to spend time with their children and other loved ones at the Women’s Prison function, ahead of today’s Mother’s Day observance.

Yesterday, St Louis was visited by her daughter Trevell, niece Jahmeela Williams and twin nephews, Ezekiel and Elijah Dunbar.

She said Trevell was the product of her relationship with her first boyfriend.

Asked if she had other children, St Louis joked: “So many I can’t keep check.” Imprisoned for quite some time, St Louis said she has been often told that the mind was the secret to withstanding the ordeal.

“It is about the way you develop your mind at the end of the day because of all the different types we dealing with and you make a child, you don’t make a mind.

Being away from my daughter made me understand that. It is real but God is good,” she said.

She urged her fellow inmates and people outside of the prison walls “to find the Creator before finding yourselves.” “He will make a way.

This (referring to herself) is a work in progress and we ain’t reach there yet.” St Louis also urged all biological mothers and mother figures to recognise and celebrate their contribution.

“Blessings to all mothers.

The fathers who have been mothers. The mothers who have been father and mother, like my mother. I really appreciate the people that have been there for me as a mother, when my mother could not be there for me physically.” St Louis said forgiveness was also a key ingredient in the rehabilitative process.

“Forgiveness is very important but I am not a person that has ever really not forgiven somebody that has done something wrong to me.” She added: “Honestly, when you enter your mother’s belly after the sperm, I don’t think that the day that you born, was not the day that I got life. I have grown in life.” St Louis urged people to learn from their mistakes.

“So within anything you do in life, please grow. Don’t fall, grow first.”