Dreaming of having a baby at all costs

At least a prostitute would have made some money for the transition but I sold out just for hearing the words I love you.

He may not marry me, as a matter of fact, I have already seen some attitudes in him I know I definitely can’t live with.

He doesn’t really have any solid intentions or any permanent employment, nevertheless I think it’s time for me to have my baby. I may end up a single parent, this is not good for the child’s development. I shouldn’t be raising any more delinquents, the jail is already full of them. I could always get another man to raise the child, a step father, but what about the problem of incest or sexual molestation, you don’t know who you can trust.

I was born from a married couple, why should I wish for less for my son/daughter, why should I deprive him of all that security, provision, peace.

How did I end up in this predicament, I should know better. I was raised up in church they say closer to the church further from God, I know that, I’ve forgotten the covenant of my youth, I have no reason to doubt that my womb is in working order. If I have any problem I could always dump the child on the grandparents, but they might spoil my child.

I could simply rent an apartment and raise my child on my own. Would that be safe, me a young attractive girl living alone that would make me very vulnerable in these perilous times. I just hope and pray I have this baby, pray? What does God have to do with this?

He has already forbid that I should commit fornication. He will have to forgive me because I want a baby bad. I can’t wait any longer while I’m young my body is stronger. Although I am good looking by appearance see meh and live with meh are two different things. I’m not easy to deal with I don’t put up with any nonsense, would this man be able to put up with me?

All I know is I want a baby now, let the devil take tomorrow for tonight I need a father.

IAN CROSS

Arima